ayaw n'yang magpatawag na sir eh, kaya Shobi lang.
nag-meet kami one night as scheduled. dumating ako sa napag-usapang motel, medyo na-late nga lang. nakakahiya. pagdating dun, sinalubong ako ni Shobi...
mainit na ngiti.
magandang katawan.
maamong mukha.
jackpot na naman ako! at maswerte ako dahil kahit isang oras akong late eh mukha namang hindi galit si Shobi.
"pasensya na po sir ha, natraffic po eh."
"no worries. Shobi na lang, please. wag na sir."
"sige po."
at nagsimula na ang kwentuhan... na medyo napahaba. ewan ko ba, pero ang gaan ng loob ko kay Shobi. at mukha namang nag-e-enjoy din sya sa kwentuhan. and kumpara sa mga casual na kwentuhan with other clients, medyo marami kaming na-cover na topic ni Shobi. pinoy sya pero halos sa amerika na sya lumaki at pabalik-balik lang sya dito sa pinas. napagkwentuhan din ang tungkol sa mga ginagawa nya dito pag wala sya magawa, at mga ginagawa nya sa usa pag wala sya magawa. basta. maraming topics na nacover... more than the usual.
"by the way, i was reading your blog... you write well! keep it up!" bati nya.
"salamat po"
"and that Yuan story... sad... just forget him."
natuwa ako kasi una, naalala nya yung story... and second, may pahapyaw pang payo!
"hahahaha! yup, matagal na rin naman yun."
"but i wasn't able to play the song."
"wait, nandito sa ipod ko."
at pinatugtog ko ang nasabing kanta habang nakahiga lang kami sa kama. napapasabay pa ako sa kanta, emote na emote, ng bigla akong yakapin ni Shobi. magkayakap lang kami habang tuloy ako sa pagkanta. hanggang sa umabot sa huling line...
"nice ha! sakto nga yung message. and you sing well ha!"
"hehe... salamat."
"o, ako naman ang kakanta."
at kinuha nya ang ipad nya at nagpatugtog ng isang kanta ng the company. nagulat ako. matatas pala sya magtagalog. at maganda rin ang boses nya!
matapos ang kantahan, tuloy tuloy lang ang kulitan. nakakatuwa kaming tignan habang naglalaro sa ipad nya, at naghaharutan, at naglalambingan... para kaming hindi client at masahista... para kaming magkasintahang naglalaro sa ibabaw ng kama. yakap dito, halik doon. yakap dito, halik doon.
malambing si Shobi, that's one thing i noticed. and, just like me, medyo touchy sya. nakakatuwa that we spent like the first 2 hours just cuddling around. partida, di pa ako naliligo nun! hahaha!
"teka, mag-shower muna ako." sabi ko sa kanya.
at pagkatapos nga maligo ay sinimulan ko na ang masahe. maganda talaga ang katawan ni Shobi. at halatang mayaman... makinis ang balat eh. the massage was a breeze... hindi man lang ako nahirapan. siguro kasi, nag-eenjoy ako sa hinihimas ko.
sisimulan ko na sana ang extra ng naisipan kong yakapin lang muna sya.
"kumusta yung masahe?"
"it was really really good."
"thanks."
at nagkatinginan kami sa mata... matagal... malambing... ng unti-unti naming pinaglapit ang mga labi namin at sabay pa kami halos na napapikit. marahan naming nilasahan ang labi ng bawat isa habang dahan dahan naming hinahaplos ang ang mga katawan, at nagpatuloy na nga ang pagkilos naming dalawa. walang pagmamadali. bawat segundo ay talagang nilalasap namin.
i could say that this is one of the best extras na naibigay ko... hindi pilit, hindi wild. romantic and passionate... may emotions... hindi lang libog.
natapos ang extra ng magkayakap kami. nagbibiruan pa kami at nagtatawanan, pero hindi muna kami naligo. magkayakap lang kami, nakaidlip pa ako sa dibdib nya.
habang naliligo at nagbibihis, tuloy pa rin ang kwentuhan. hanggang sa may sinabi sya na ikinagulat ko rin.
"you are a great guy."
"well, thank you! so are you... sobrang bait mo. tapos gwapo pa, maganda pa katawan... good catch, ika nga nila."
"well, no one caught me yet."
"i did! haha! joke lang."
"haha! nga pala, you're also single, right?"
"yes."
"why?"
at napunta na kami sa usapan ng pagiging single... i think it's a good sign.
maya maya pa ay naghiwalay na kami ng landas. nagtext ako sa kanya, the usual courtesy that i do sa mga clients ko. and he responded.
"i had a very good time. you're such a great guy. i will definitely see you again. next week, maybe?"
ikinatuwa ko yun, hindi dahil repeat client sya, pero dahil magkakaroon ulit ako ng chance para makita sya. and yun pa lang, masaya na ako.
isang linggo matapos, kinumusta ko sya. at nagreply naman sya sa text ko.
"hey! i'm great! back here in the US. biglaan eh."
nagulat ako. at sa mga text exchange pa namin, he mentioned another thing...
apparently, a few days after we met, the good catch Shobi was caught by another guy na...
ano pa nga bang magagawa ko? Shobi is a wonderful person. kahit sino sigurong makakilala sa kanya eh aasaming maging boyfriend sya. but during our first meetup, it would be inappropriate for me to somewhat try to court him... masahista ako eh. wala kaming karapatang magkagusto sa clients. kasi iisipin nilang umaarter lang kami. pero kung sakali namang maramdaman nilang totoo yung nararamdaman namin para sa kanila, they will not consider us naman dahil nga sa trabaho namin. yan ang dilemma ng trabaho namin. diba kadalasan sinasabi ng iba na ang pag-ibig eh nakakasira ng trabaho? the same works for us. though mas mahirap sa amin, kasi minan gusto na naming piliin yung pag-ibig, and we're even willing to give up our jobs... but people won't give us the chance. nakulong na kami sa dilim ng trabaho namin, na para bang kahit anong gawin namin, the fact that we are sex workers will always haunt us. parang sumpa na sa amin na hindi magkaroon ng mabuting pag-ibig.
anyway... kung anu-ano na ang sinasabi ko. i wrote this entry lang naman as Shobi requested. gusto nya ng shoutout. gusto nyang batiin ko sya dito sa blog.
so, Shobi, this is the least thing i could do for you... hello! and ingat ka dyan sa tate ha!
How sad....
ReplyDeletehmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
ReplyDeletelove your voice
ReplyDeleteawwwww..... don't worry there's a lot of fishes in the ocean.
ReplyDeletedear, don't berate yourself too much.
ReplyDeleteit's not healthy for anybody.
hemingways,people get confused between the legendary "spark" and onset infatuation and sometimes you'd be amazed how juvenile it can get.
There are certain scenarios and factors that can lead to a serious relationship.... but that is for another day.
For the meantime here are some articles you might want to catch:
http://www.geeky-guide.com/2011/08/technicolor-musings-about-being-single.html?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+TheGeekyGuideToNearlyEverything+%28The+Geeky+Guide+to+Nearly+Everything%29
http://garapata.blogspot.com/2009/04/icky-love-booster-i-am-good-person.html
"the fact that we are sex workers will always haunt us. parang sumpa na sa amin na hindi magkaroon ng mabuting pag-ibig."
Everyone has something hanging over their shoulder regardless of career, lifestyle, etc.
And I end this with a Zafra quote:
“Everyone declares that love is irrational, and yet everytime this statement is proven correct, they profess amazement. They seem to assume that love will make an exception in their case. It never does.”
my bf was a sex worker, i met him because of his work. isang taon at kalahati na ang aming relasyon, pero ilang buwan na din kami magkalayo. tinulungan ko sya makapag-abroad at mabago ang linya ng trabaho nya at kahit alam kong mahirap binigay ko ang tiwala ko sa kanya for him to gain respect for himself.
ReplyDeleteerik
I don't know if this comment might be detached or something, heck, like someone would care. I find the story cute! Sometimes, you meet a person that you think is "the one" but actually is destined to be your good friend. ☺
ReplyDeleteawwwwww. you will never know what will happen next. 'ika nga nila, Life Is like a Box of Chocolates... You Never Know What You're Gonna Get...continue being good, continue dreaming....
ReplyDeleteantinurse
pinaiyak mo naman ako ken....boy of bats..
ReplyDeleteang cute ng story! not the happy ending I am expecting nga lang...
ReplyDeletenga pala? bakit Shobi? pang babae yun eh, di ba dapat Shoti? peace!
-Lawrence
Hahaha. This was more than what I expected thanks ah. Although you left out a small detail about what our subsequent plan was, which involve you-know-what. Hehehe. And yeah, it's Shoti, not Shobe. Hahaha. I think I'll make my Howe read this. Thanks again man. Kudos, more power!
ReplyDeleteShoti :)
tingin ko you have the same chance as others to find a relationship. you might even have a better chance because of your work. baka hindi ka rin willing iwanan yung work mo in exchange for something you're not sure will be worth it
ReplyDeleteawww. sayang. you don't get to meet a lot of guys like him.. lucky you, nakasama mo sya kahit one night. though, it's sad din dahil it's just a night. sayang nga. :) better luck next time.
ReplyDeleteBTW, heard your interview sa fabcasters. :) i salute you for being confident with your job.